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Exploring music again. Nelson said to lean into the music rather than wait for it to happen. I interpreted this to mean Š hollow out and incline, as in Tai Chi. I experimented with the technique as I played duets w/L last night - very successful.
So dear Nelson, although he abuses me, has been very helpful with his suggestions. Basically he wonÕt tolerate lack of precision. Specifically he can hear when my fingers or feet havenÕt developed sufficient body memory to play the piece perfectly. The drag on my acceptance of this drive for perfection is that I am only playing for myself and no one else. I thought I was playing for Nelson, but I canÕt please him Š so I realize IÕm really only playing for me. Although IÕve learned a tremendous amount about hand position, organ registers, practice techniques, and paying attention to each little note, I still must play for myself Š for my own enjoyment.
Said the Left Brain. ItÕs actually a much more intuitive response than that. My Left BrainÕs feelings were hurt and heÕs just pouting, attempting to undermine my relation w/Nelson. Each time I sit down to the keyboards, my response must come from the Heart. Then the Music will lead me. And Nelson, in his drive for perfection, is pointing at the Music.