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Nothing much Ð except website construction and general isolation Ð a desire to change- but nowhere to go Ð Jupiter square Uranus. A sense of ebulation combined w/desolation. Love and Despair.
7-5-07: > Saturn conjunct my Midheaven exact > a moment of fame
From isolation to excessive fame as Nelson has lunch w/us on Tuesday; King visits that afternoon; Peter, who I havenÕt seen years, shows up to do Tai Chi at Oak Park on Wednesday, followed by Phil, who hasnÕt been there in months, and Tom, who was last there in May. I help Phil move to a new apartment. Also Emily, David & Ted come over for 4th of July fireworks and dinner that evening. Peter will be in town for a few days to brush up on his Wu Tang sword, followed by Gary on Sunday, who has not been in SB for years. Saturn conjunct my Midheaven exact Ð my spot of fame and all my Tai Chi vagabonds visit for the 1st time since Ni retired.
To be honest, itÕs a bit overwhelming. Although I enjoy the excitement and interaction, IÕm ready for some more isolation. All the talk is somewhat draining. My socialite side is in conflict with my artist side.
Shifting: the isolation I refer to has something to do w/loneliness, but probably has more to do w/ the crowd moving on a skew line in terms of my interests. Specifically: at the Wine Cask the general talk is about how wasted they got on what substances. ÔWhoa! I got so wasted last night. Ô And then when I was at our annual gathering it was a Ôyahoo and a guffawÕ about 'this and thatÕ, but very little, if any at all, about my cares and concerns. So Emily, DavidÕs wife, was like a breath of fresh air, a clear mountain stream, when she asked, ÔHow are you doing?Õ, and actually listened to the answer. Anyway nothing like feeling loneliness in the midst of a laughing crown - and feeling loved and protected in the wilderness all by yourself. Ah well. Such is Das Leben.